Something is different.....

7:45 AM, school bus came whizzing past our home, ,the same as it does every year on the first day of school.  This year was different though.  Not because we were still in our pajamas, or that we hadn't even had breakfast yet, but something deeper inside was different.

Different in me.

A few moments later my husband had caught me looking at Facebook.  " I wouldn't look at FB today if I were you" was his response.  I replied, "No, it's fine.  I'm happy.  I am really happy."  His instruction was thoughtful and made sense had it been a year ago, but this year was different.

I was different.

Instead of seeing the school bus go by and wondering if I had made the right decision; I barely noticed the bus.  Instead of looking and almost drooling over friends pictures of their kids' first day of school; I felt nothing but happiness for them and happiness for us! 

This year I was happy to have my kids home, with all my heart.  Happy to not be rushing to get breakfast down the kids bellies, fighting with my oldest daughter to wake and get dressed, and getting everyone in the car just to drive a few miles to drop them off.

I was content, happy.

What changed in me in just one short year, I don't know for sure but I know it was God's doing.  Homeschooling isn't for every family, not everyone is called to it, but I know God called our family to this journey.  After today, I am even more confident in that. 

Last year, as much as I might have thought it or said it, I don't believe I had given in completely to His plan for me and schooling my children.  I still had that desire deep down to just send them to school and take the easy way out and not do what He had called me to do!  His plan is always perfect, but His plan is never easy. 

Over this last year, the Lord has lead me to all the right home school articles, blogs, conferences etc to make me prepared for where I am today.  He has given me joy in homeschooling.  He has given me peace and relaxation in homeschooling (something I didn't have at all last year).  But most of all He has given me LOVE for His plan, not the world's.

So as we enjoy our last few weeks of summer (we will start school after Labor Day), I will be happy for my friends whose children have started school but I will also be happy for us and God's plan for our life. 

Is there anything that God has called you to do that you just haven't completely given in to? 

Love and Blessings